28
The last time I sat down to write on here I was in a much different state of mind and body than I am now. Looking back over the last year has left me feeling very reflective. However, more than anything else, the one thing I can say without a doubt is that I have leveled up. Level 27 was a year of growth and becoming the person I am meant to be. It hasn’t come easily and there have been pains and struggles along the way, but I truly would not change a single moment from the past year.
Instantaneously everything can change in the blink of an eye.
Last year around this time I was diagnosed with Graves Disease and began what has now turned into the rest of my life. I started medication, meditation and regular doctor visits. It’s taken a mental and physical toll on myself and my body. There have been ups and downs & I know there will be many more. Yet here I am a year later, and I am healthier than I have been my entire life & I wouldn’t be without my Grave’s Disease. My body is finally healing & so am I.
We make plans and plans change. When this happens we are forced to reevaluate and in the moments of reevaluation you can either do one of two things, shrivel up and retreat inwardly or you can find a way to stand up and figure out how to walk forward. I’m not saying you can’t be sad or depressed, but you can’t let one bad day, make you feel like you have a bad life. This time last year I had started therapy right before my diagnosis and my journey to self love and acceptance was definitely derailed. However I know now how to look at things from a healthy perspective. I give myself time to deal with things in my own way. I do what is best for me and I am learning to be kinder to myself. If the last year has taught me anything it has been to take care of myself no matter what & that being gray is ok, especially when black or white don’t suit your soul at the moment. 27 showed me that staying positive is life & death. So I have eliminated negativity from my life and I don’t intend on letting it back in. It’s definitely not as easy as it sounds but it’s what you have to do to stay on track mentally, emotionally and spiritually.
“A woman is like a tea bag, you can’t tell how strong she is until you put her in hot water.”
-Eleanor Roosevelt
It’s a good thing I love a hot showers, 27 has been steaming.
Over the past year my relationships have gotten stronger, and I feel as if my life is falling into place. It’s still messy in ways, but it’s my own organized chaos that I can handle happily.
I have recently started refocusing on my creative side and I’m going to start pouring my heart and soul into doing something I love, which is simply creating. After spending the past year focusing on my health and getting better (which is still and always will be a main focus) I’m ready to dive into something head first. I feel excited again, for the first time in a while. That being said, I am going to wrap this up, I have puppies to cuddle & sleep is calling.
Thank you 27. You’ve taught me a lot, you’ve helped make me, me.
Hello 28.
